Saturday 4/16/16

I had a full on in tears breakdown today. It was when you focus on all the worst things about yourself and feel pretty worthless and upset. On top of that I've been feeling really "trunky" and so anxious to leave "the rock". We still don't know when that will be but it's still a few months down the road. I also have the added stress of needing to write a talk for church that I procrastinated. (As usual!) My poor loving husband didn't know what to do with me. He held me while I cried then left me to work on my talk. He helped Alexis work on her IXL which has been such a struggle lately. She needs to be completely finished with her 3rd grade math section by April 28th. If she is she gets paid $50ec and we will be having delicious homemade ice cream cake!!!! If she's not done she owes Mark money, doesn't get yummy awesomeness and STILL has to finish her IXL. Now tell me which is a better option?? She keeps getting distracted and frustrated. She has quite a few left to do now but that is only because she wouldn't work on them last fall when we told her she needed to or THIS would happen. Anyway, Mark is trying to help her with that and wrangle all the other kids AND fix dinner so I can write my talk. YET I feel major GUILT allowing him to help me because he should be studying...   This amazing man has learned to juggle life like a champ! He never lets the balls drop. He is an amazing father and husband, a medical student, president of the student government association on campus and branch president of our church here. How does he do it all?? I struggle each day trying to figure out what to do for dinner. No worries tonight though. He's got that covered too!! I'm so grateful for this amazing man that I call mine. I am so very blessed that he loves me and puts me first.

Friday April 8, 2016

Mark is taking his last final right now!!! Oh I hope it's going well! It makes me anxious. My fingers are crossed and I've said so many prayers! It will be days into next week until he gets the score and knows for sure the outcome of the semester. 

Emma loves this baby from the family lounge. 

We gathered with members of the church for the Collegium Aesculapium club. Or LDS group that hasn't really done anything for a few semesters...   Tonight we had a pizza party!

Thursday April 7, 2016

I seem to want to remember everything that happens which is completely overwhelming. I can't possibly record everything that happens in my everyday but I do want to remember what a typical day was like here. I know that I will treasure our time in the Caribbean. I know my memories once we're gone will become sugar coated a bit and I may even wish for these days back again. They are slipping away rather quickly. It is such an interesting conversation I have with myself everyday trying to "enjoy the journey" while also yearning to be back in Idaho! I am grateful for the unique opportunity we have to be here and am trying to make the most of it.
This morning I heard Isaac and Alexis discussing something about school. I was trying to eavesdrop and it wasn't working well so I went and sat by them and tried to be part of the conversation. Isaac was talking about how he felt frustrated that he always raises his hand in class at calendar time and never gets called on. This semester his teacher mostly speaks French to them and he said they can't understand her. He said he hates it and wants to go back to the states now. Lexi was feeling frustration from things also and is ready to be done here. I TOTALLY get where they are coming from but tried to be encouraging and help them see the good here. There really is a lot and going back to the states doesn't make life perfect. (Just a lot better!!) I was glad we could talk about it. When I saw them at lunch they were all perfectly happy and seemed to be having a good day. It also helped that I brought pizza, a cinnamon roll to share and fresh baguettes from the French bakery. I got Mark a chicken sandwich and a piece of his favorite chocolate dream cake from there as well.
Mark's last final of medical school is tomorrow!!!!! He passed his final Monday and has a little wiggle room on this exam. As long as he doesn't fall flat on his face he should come out alive and pass the semester. Fingers crossed!! He feels a lot of pressure and stress. I can't wait until it's over!!! Unfortunately, we'll have to wait a few days to hear the score. In the meantime Mark and I will attend a banquet for last semester students and then he will get right back to work studying for Comp.

I went to my last RSO meeting and handed over my VP baton to someone else. Afterwards I wandered around with a few ladies over to the yoga deck and took some silly pictures. 

Tonight at bedtime Emma stole something of Isaac's and ran into my room to hide. She saw me coming after her and closed my door. I went to open it and the door was LOCKED! She was locked inside in the dark! She started freaking out when I didn't open the door and so did I. We don't have a key for the door and I am not good at opening locked doors with a credit card. First off I couldn't find the card Mark has used to open the door in the past! (This has happened before! Well not with Emma inside...) I was able to find the card and surprisingly got it open on my first try. Poor girl!